Saturday, December 31, 2011

GoodBye 2011

I can't believe it's one year since I came to US, I was so busy pampering me, me and myself all the time. Yeah, life is wonderful this year.Hope it is going to be the  same way next year too.

Love You All!!
Remember, Life is precious as well as devine.
Lead it the way you want,
but make you sure you never regret your deeds.

P.S: I am waiting for some good news, wish me good luck.Hope I will soon post about it :)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Me, Indians, 24 and blah blah..

If some one asks me about India, I get too excited to tell about how different cultures, traditions differ from place to place, but how all of us posses a commonality.On the other day, Demetar and I were having a chat and he asked me about our educational system, I said that we have some of the best colleges that are recognized world-wide like ISB,IIMs and IITs, getting an admission in those colleges wouldn't be less difficult than getting admission in Wisc. He said that he was glad he didn't come from a place, that had this level of competition.

After a week, I had Design Of Analysis and Algorithms exam, the toughest course in our college.Doing the assignment given by the professor takes a minimum of three complete days, yet I am not sure I will be able to implement my logic as a formulae and develop an algorithm. But most of the Indians get around 80-90, come on every other member(I mean exclude the Indians) knew that we are copying it from the solutions given in the previous semesters. To some extent this was fine even if a person who figures out the answer using his brain gets 50 marks and we get 80 marks. But what if I say that most of the students used Smart phones to copy in the exam by downloading the material and sending messages(True or False) to others.Shameless. Remember something, if you do some illegal thing when you are abroad , you not only represent yourself but also your country.

Yes, I felt so embarrassed when the Professor, asked "how the hell did all of you write the algorithm if you can't solve the problem, I exactly gave you the home work problem except I changed the numbers.".And, there comes the comments , "Budde numbers badal diye is kevaste hum lik nay paye"," We are smart, we used smart phones ", "Hey shorty, give us the papers else we will leave ".

How disgusting , he is highly talented professor who had designed algorithms by himself and we smart Indians who are good at copying call him "shorty","budde". Initially, I felt that the professor is showing slight racism by  treating Indians like we don't know anything, yeah it's true we don't know anything except copying and we are the ones due to which the word 'Plagiarism ' became so populuar in US.

I felt so bad that I lied to Demetar, yeah I shouldn't have boasted about Indians. After knowing that being an undergrad student, he can do far better than most of the final sem grad students.

Finally done with it!!!!!!!!
Come on, don't even let the thought of  'exams' creep in your mind, I am least bothered about studies for the past  few weeks. Yeah, I can't believe how desperate I was to watch all the series.Seriously , I had done "string reversal" problem for around 10 hours while watching the series and you know what, I kept trying to debug the problem while I made a basic mistake, which I didn't realize until I am done with season 6. Oh come on, now don't keep an awkward expression on your face, I knew 'string reversal', but I was so engrossed in the serial, which was finally reflected in my results:(

P.S :  If you wish to say some thing regarding what I wrote about Indians, please don't waste your time. I am an Indian, I feel so bad writing that way. But this is what's going happening around:(

Friday, November 25, 2011

He gave me flowers..

    I got flowers today. It wasn't my birthday or any other special day.We had our first argument last night and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me.I know that he is sorry and didn't mean to say the things he said - because he sent me flowers today. 
    I got flowers today. It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.Last night he threw me into a wall and then started to choke me.It seemed like a nightmare but you wake up from nightmares to find that they aren't real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.I know he must be sorry - because he sent me flowers today. 
    I got flowers today. And it wasn't Valentines Day or any other special day. Last night he beat me and threatened to kill me.Makeup and long sleeves didn't hide the cuts and bruises this time.I couldn't go to work because I didn't want anyone to know.But I know he is sorry - because he sent me flowers today. 
    I got flowers today and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day.Last night he beat me again and it was much worse than all the other times. If I leave him what will I do? How will I take care of the kids?What about money? I'm afraid of him and too scared to leave him!But he must be sorry - because he sent me flowers today. 
I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day.
 It was the day of my funeral.
Last night he finally killed me. I was beaten to death.
If only I would have gathered enough courage and strength to leave him. 
 So I got flowers today - for the very last time. 
~Author Unknown

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Saturday, October 29, 2011

Happy Me

The BEST insurance policy for tomorrow is to make the most productive use of today.

Life is Beautiful
 Today I am one of the most happy person, not because I got what I want, but today I found the way to reach my destination.Yes,I am loving programming and the tough competition around me is driving me nuts, still I like to face day-by-day challenges. Life is wonderful,isn't it????

Love MakeLife Beautiful 
Keep Loving.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Emotional Dance

Oh honey!!Bewitched by your radiance
Drenched my soul in mixed emotions.
Yet divine is this intoxication
Lurking behind the inconsistent world.

Fused are our souls
So hard to rip away from one another.
Why did fate bring us together?
If we are not destined eternity.

Never know how long it lasts
But the fragrance stays forever.
They might still be blossoms 
But one day they turn to be flowers on my grave.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Why??!!Why me??

Warning : I don't mean to humiliate anyone, this post is purely intended for fun.If you are the one who are aiming to establish,define and defend equal political,social and economic rights to everyone irrespective of sexism and gender,please come back to read my next post.*No puns intended*

..This post is contradictory to my previous post(Naah!!previous posts).Many have been asking me why I write sad posts?Whats the reason behind it??...Noo I am not dumped by anyone, but you know I love sad stories(Idiot didn't you read my tags??Go and check it out you can know better about me..hurry:P).

..But due to some requests this time I decided to write a happy post..well the situation suits..Did I mention that  I got an assistantship??..Oh no I didn't....well, you can easily guess that my new job is keeping me busy. NOOOOOOOO!! I am not busy with my new job but I am busy with my other old(dy) job.Guess what my supervisor asked me to do??...."Hey can you do me a favor today?Can you please spotlight the dragshow??"......I wanted to scream Nahiiiiiiiiii as if hamari spotlight bahurani's and devrani's sceam : ) ........meanwhile......."and yeah did I mention you that the show lasts till 11:00Pm??.".....*awestruck*..

..Wowo....all had fun that night *excluding myself*..I was busy in answering the phones.Yeah my friends called me to make fun of the-so-called-great-Student Manager-position:( . Last but not the least, how could I forget to mention mama's reaction.

Mama : What that show??**Ughhhh!!*
Me      :Kuch nahi hoga mammaaa..
Mama : What if some one knows that you were in that show?
Me      :Kya hoga??
Mama  : Kya hoga??Tumhari shaadi nahi hoga..C'mon use sense, girls from reputed families like ours will never attend such functions.
Me      : Mama yeh koi function thodi hai,sab ko bhulane keliye aur sab attend karneki..its jus a show..and mama I didn't attend it.Mr.MC asked me to spot light it.It's my job mama.
Mama :Then ask him to do that.
Me      : Mamaa..he is my boss, I am not his boss:@
Mama  :Okay,leave it.But never do such things again.And don't tell that you saw that show to anyone.I mean anyone.Is that clear??
* Poor can she forget I am a chatter-box?? *

My third phone damanged this year,might be due to heat :( (Yeah!!I speak a lot).Why don't Nokia or Sony Ericsson develop cell coolers??

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Goodbye's never felt so sweet.

From my childhood I love rainy season,I jus want to watch drizzling from windows.Don't know why but I am afraid to drench myself in rain.Today it's raining so hard,not so hard that it can kill some one..but after a long time it made me cry.I forgot about my pants & sat in the grass crying like a child.It's another common day in my life when million memories came flooded.Yes,memories is all I have now, with a tidal wave of sadness.I want to bring the day over and over.But somewhere I know Goodbye's never felt so sweet as they made me feel today.

Must Watch movie : Aarakshan

Monday, August 29, 2011

Never Ending Story

I wonder what is life??
Living or letting others live?
Both are on extremities of circle,
That I loose balance when I try to take a step.

I wish someone would pierce me so hard
That I eventually forget my pain forever
I don't understand why pain & pleasure are antonyms
For I feel both are beside me coupling all the time.

I want to be like now or never
For last moments are always a pleasure
And never is an everlasting pain.
I want pain or pleasure, but both are extremely dangerous.

I am not afraid of anything
For I don't have anything to loose
Except my death,which is the final pleasure.
But for which you need to cross the road of pain.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Saying Images

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Why me??

I am devastated.Completely. Yes, I am stuck in between ASSHOLES who never knows how to enjoy their life.They can lead a luxurious life, but all they do is interrupt me or irritate me.Why on Earth I need to bother about them & answer them??I don't want my pride to come down, of course I don't have much left & my dignity tank is absolutely empty.

I learned to survive.Yeah!!True man!!I got a job.Not worthy mentioning after such a big wait....But yeah I got it,right??I am a student manager in our University Center.I am not a biggy.Yet I make some bucks every month.I cook,I laundry,I clean,I study(probably 2 hours in 3 days :(  ) and I do my shopping too :D . I have a lot of things to do, but you know I am free all the time.Jus for a change I thought of vacuuming my entire apartment.Yeah I had done it & guess what happened??My roomie came and started doing it again.I asked why??She said all the lines are not G-R-I-D, she like them that way.Do you believe guys??I was awestruck.Unfortunately all my roomies are suffering with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.May god bless their prospective life partners.

Yeah!!Here is my short conversation with my dearest friend:)
Me : Hey I am asking my parents to send a cheque of X060$, that will be enough na?
He : Nope, ask for X100$
Me : But why?My  fees is X061.66$ and it included insurance too.
He : I jus rounded it.
Me : I already done that X061.66 to X060,do you see that?
He : But 100 at the ending sounds perfect.
Me : I am not sure whether I am gonna get back that 40$ or not.
He : Still X100 makes a perfect number.
Me : Think about it, 40$ that means 1600Rupess(I always have this $-Rupee converter active in my mind:P).Do you think that makes sense?/
He : But Numerically we always round the number in the best possible way.Noting makes sense more than this:)
Me : Okay. *Mr.Junior Monk*

Thank God.Finally he agreed with me.Wow such a good, funny and great friend.I am sure he will be reading this.So waiting for the reaction:)

P.S: Watched ZNMD. Guess it didn't reach my expectations :(

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Something's shuts off permanently...

Tanu :  "Hey Karthik....whatzz upp??"
Karthik : "I haven't changed my mind......I still love stop convincing me, and tell me what do you think??"
Tanu : "You know some where I am not the same......happy person......some where some things lost control".
Karthik : "Try to give me a chance,  I will take care of you my entire life......but I jus wanna ask you one thing.."
Tanu :  "mmm........bholooo" 
Karthik : " Tum mujhse kabhi bhi puri zindagi mein Manu kho jitna  pyaar kiya us mein thoda sa bhi mujhe pyaar kar sakthi ho kya??".
Tanu : "I don't know....".

Current track : Maula Maula - Awarapan

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Day # 14; Day # 15;Day #16;Day# 17

Day # 14: A picture that shows something special about you.

I love Mehendi designs.I tried it on my hand,it turned out okay-okay.

Day 15 - Put your iPod on shuffle : First 5 songs that play?

I still don't have an iPod , thinking of buying an iPod touch or iPhone for thanks-giving deals.
But if you ask  me which songs I prefer right now,the list will be
1.Bol Hadippa
2. Iktara - Wake up Sid
4.Linkin Park - Numb
5.Gori Teri Aankhen kahe

Day # 16 - Current relationship,discuss about it.


Day# 17 :

Someone you would want to switch your lives with for one day and why?

None coz I came to know that we will find happiness in our lives only if we have 'problems' and it's impossible to find anyone in the world without problems.

P.S: This project is really sucks!!!!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Day # 11; Day # 12; Day 13

Day # 11:

Your zodiac sign and do you think it matches you?

Zodiac sign : Capricorn
Planet : Saturn

Strengthen keywords :
  • responsible
  • patient
  • ambitious
  • resourceful
  • loyal
Weakness keywords
  • dictorial
  • inhibited
  • conceited
  • distrusting
  • unimaginative
Capricorns in Nutshell : 
You can find these qualities in myself :)
  • Capricorns are very ambitious people, they always have something they are pursuing and they want their lives to be fulfilled and important.
  • They tend to be in control in a romantic relationship that way they are never vulnerable to another person.
  • They evaluate everything and they don't take daring chances without weighing the advantages and disadvantages first.
  • Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once they let someone in, they do not want to let them go and emotional connection makes them feel vulnerable yet satisfied at the same time. This is an ongoing internal conflict of contradictions inside the Capricorn's mind.
  • Capricorns are very cautious but this only to survey the situation before leaping in, they will never make a hasty jump in:( 

Day # 12

Your favorite season and why?

I love 'SPRING' and the beautiful flowers & shades of them.

Day # 13

Your views on drugs,alcohol and religion.

All are the same.
Easiest form of 'suicide'.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Day # 08 ; Day # 09 ; Day # 10

Day # 08

Short term goals and why?
  • Sharpen my programming skills.
  • Should try to bake a cake(Do they rhyme? :D).
  • Need to find part time ASAP.
  • Visit Phili by the end of this month.
  • Try to reduce the amount of time I spend on 'Skype'.
  • Reduce the number of movies I watch daily:(
  • Should shed around 2-3kgs.
  • Don't try to use AT & T free minutes as much as possible.They are not going to be dumped by your usage.So stop taking the advantage.
  • Try to become a vegan, no semi-vegan sounds good right?
  • Hit a parlor for a hair cut.
  • Don't wake up till 10 A.M, I hate the beds under my eyes.
  • Fall asleep by 11P.M.
  • Do good in speak test & get a TA position.
  • Finish 30 day challenge so that these memories help you to warm up.
    Day # 09

    Something you are proud of in the post.

    Learning to live.

    Day # 10

    Songs you listen when you are Sad,Happy,Moody etc.

    I play songs all the time, irrespective of my mood.It's not that they influence me, but I forget my pains trying to feel the song:P . Here is the list and I am sure I am gonna miss a lot of them.

    English :
    Sexy Naughty Bitch - Tata Young
    Grace- Kate Havnevik
    La Isla Bonita - Alizee
    Rescue me - Rihanna
    Here without you - 3 Doors Down
    Far away - Nickelback
    Open your eyes - Snowpatrol
    Listen to your heart - DHT
    You and me - Lifehouse
    Wherever you will go - The Calling
    If you are not the one - Daniel Bendingfield
    When you are gone - Avril Lavingue
    Everynight in my dreams - Titanic

    Hindi : 
    Zindagi mein koi kabhi - Musafir
    Pyaar Tune Kya Kiya - PTKK
    Mujh ko kudha ne - PTKK
    Kehna hai kya - Bombay
    Suna Suna Lamha L - Krishna Cottage
    Woh Lamhe - Zeher
    All Songs - Gangster
    Bin Tere Kya- Woh Lamhe
    Silsila Yeh Chahath ka - Devdas

    Serials Title Song :)
    Tere Liye
    Kaisa Yeh Pyaar Hai
    Kkasam Se
    Dil Mil Gaye
    Amber Dhara
    Pavitra Rishta
    Kitna Mohobatt Hai
    Kish Desh Mein Hai Mera Dil
    I will keep on uploading this list as I keep watching new ones.....

    Tuesday, June 7, 2011

    Day # 05 ; Day # 06 ; Day # 07

    Day # 05 :

    A picture of somewhere you have been to

    This pic is taken by me during our north trip.I would do anything to go back there & visit some must-see places which we missed do to our so called perfect schedule.The most worst part is we went to Agra  & missed Taj Mahal, we went to Dwaraka & missed Lord Krishna's temple.Believe me there isn't a person who didn't ROFL when we said about our trip.The best part is all of us are of same age, so we rocked ; music & dances all the time:).


    That trip made me visit Delhi for the first time in my life.I couldn't forget how one girl , much younger than me bargained & how I used to pray to god that she should appear before billing the dresses. The weather Simla had was awfully cold & for a split second I thought it would be better to kill myself than spending one more night there.Idiosyncrasy. I always remember those days, that made me forget who I am.

    Day # 06

    Favorite Superhero and why??

    I love fantasy movies. If I am asked a superhero I would mention 'Harry Potter'. All my childhood I spent waiting for the next sequel of Harry Potter. The things that makes Harry so special is not only his special gifts, but his scar, his value for his friends ,his skills and so on.I wish I had such a wand, so with swish all my problems would vanish away.

    Day # 07

    A picture of some thing that has biggest impact on you.

    I don't know why but this picture had been on my desktop for ages.
    Whenever I feel upset,I feel better looking at her.
    This might be due to her innocent eyes & radiating smile.
    How little does she know that fate has something else in her store.

    Saturday, June 4, 2011

    Day # 03 & Day # 04

    Three thing which you like the most.

    Hello I am Neeha.*shaking hands*.Glad to meet you.Now let me introduce myself, I am the girl who loves to eat golgappa's for the breakfast,lunch,snacks & dinner.Yes, I can survive on golgappas my entire life. But I am not that fortune coz my momma never lets me eat them. Still I sneakily used to have them at least four times a week.

    This is my all time favorite combination :

    2.Dancing :
    I am surely one of the world's worst dancer, but still I love to dance or atleast love to watch performances. I regret for not learning dance in my childhood, never mind I encourage my girl(noo..indeed i will push her for dancing classes).
    Hey don't forget to watch Isha Sharvani's performance, she is one of the reason why I love dance.


    3.Shopping,Shopping & Shopping... :
    I am shop-alcoholic.I love shopping esp when there are clearance,deals & sales.The only thing I hate to shop for is 'perfumes', I shopped once for the perfume with my sister. I felt suffocated, perfume+perfume+perfume+ coffee beans+perfume+perfume+perfume+beans+ P + P + P + P + B + P + P...
    and you know the process went for around one hour. So then I decided not to shop for perfumes.I mean never with a company(that too who wants to present it to her boyfriend) in my lifetime.
    Here are some of the things which I love shopping :)

    Day # 04 :

    A habit that you wish you didn't have:

    Emmmmmmm, I am damn persistent & stubborn. In addition, I am good at giving explanation in such a way that makes the other person think about 'Zandu Balm'. Almost any person who is close to me pin-pointed this to me.
    Explanation sucks, I can never predict what the other person is thinking about me. So I try convincing them until I am able to read a 'shut-up' symbol on the other person. You know it becomes difficult while it's a telephonic conversation, you know I can't read their minds I can read their faces only :P

    Thursday, June 2, 2011

    Day # 02

    The meaning behind your blog name.

    Just now I changed my blog  name from 'It's my life' to 'SANDS OF TIME',I am confused what should be the new one 'Sands of time' or 'Persistent Moi'.Finally I decided 'SANDS OF TIME'. From googling I came to know that 'The sands of time is an idiom meaning that time runs out either through something reaching an end or through a person's death. It comes from the sand used in hourglasses, an ancient way of measuring time'.But the main reason why I changed the title is I believe memories cannot be stolen & with the help of this blog I can take snapshots of my feelings & possessions so that when today is gone, tomorrow I will have something to hold & cuddle with me.
    By the way which title do you like guys??

    Wednesday, June 1, 2011

    30 day challenge

    Today while blogging I found something interesting, 30-day challenge. I thought that would be fun & started taking it, so hope one day all of you too will take it up.
    But I promise myself(which means I promise you) not to reveal any of my pictures.
    *Stop feeling bad, I think i will post my wedding pics..So wait for it :) *
    A recent picture of you  you had taken and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
    I seriously don't know the meaning of interesting, coz everything around me seems so boring to me:(

     This is when I am preparing for my sem examz.I love my room this way:)
    1.I am a day-to-day struggler, trying so hard to please myself and people around me.
    2.I like to have ice-cream when it rains.
    3.I am not good at starting conversation, esp with strangers & so-far relatives.
    4.I cry while watching serials/pictures/reading novels where a heroine/hero dumps the other & later falls in love with other person, and realizes their previous love is an infatuation.
    5.I believe in ghosts/spirits & I will call some one in India if I had to step out of my room in the night.
    6.I like to watch sad songs & write dull poems all the time.
    7.I have had my heart-broken after watching 'Yaadein' & remembering he was married:P
    8.I had number of friends, but many let me down in difficult situations & never understood me.
    9.I am not 'beauty conscious', at least not to the extent people think I am.
    10.I was missed twice & so my mom never let me to step out of the house alone(excluding college, that too most of the time I had a friend with me).
    11.Many of my friends tell me, I behave 'childish'.
    12.One day I love to visit Venice,Mt.Abu & Lahore(I don't know why but I like the word 'Lahore').
    13.I always think I would have studied well if I am placed in Hogwarts.
    14.If I loose impression once, it's hard for me to mingle with them again.
    15.I love making fun of my sister, she reacts too fast & gets annoyed easily:)

    Monday, May 30, 2011

    An ordinary girl

    I am unlucky,You know that...
    But I am lucky,I know that...
    I lost my life & came to know what life is....
    I value it & want live it up to my expectations...
    I may not be the same again,never mind....
    I am ready to face ups and downs in the roller-coaster ride known as 'life',
    I don't need  your help ,to heal my wounds...
    Just leave me the way I am...
    'Stop hurting me any more'.

    Your truly,
    An ordinary girl with extraordinary love for you.

    Wednesday, May 25, 2011

    It's not an ordinary day..

    So the bad news is Tornado hit Missouri on May 24h,2011. Today it's our KC's turn , so I am bit tensed,nervous and excited.I was so busy reading MONK novel ,simultaneously chit-chatting with a friend completely ignorant about the siren indicating Tornado alert.Suddenly my door bell rang and I completely realized the situation is bit critical , all of us ran to the basement.I called to India, terrified them to hell.After some time when everything is fine, I went back and stared cooking broccoli-&-tomato, guess what??It's delicious :) .

    Then I went to my friend's house and feasted on Chicken specials while watching the Kisna's movie.The plot of the movie is so simple or I don't want to exaggerate it, so I would come to point directly for those who didn't watch the movie.

    Kisna had a childhood friend Cathy(foreigner) , who returns to their village after years.Lakshmi loves Kisna & wants to marry him.Both get engaged.In between you have some fights between Indians and British.People decide to kill Cathy, Kisna while rescuing her , realizes they share much more strong bond than friendship.But at the end he says that its his responsibility to go back to Lakshmi.At the end Lakshmi says that she realized (Late)Kisna never loved her , his love belongs to Cathy alone.Cathy too says the same.

    Now I have few questions, please give me your opinions:
    1.Don't you think it would have been better if he had spend the rest of his life with Cathy?
    2.Guys do you really believe love happens only once??

    Now let me tell you my opinions:
    1.Cathy would have been better,Lakshmi would die in pain realizing Kisna had never loved her, jus stayed with her...which are as different as heaven and hell.
    2.What happens once in our life, happens again.This universe is infinitely large & extends to infinity in both extremes.So have faith,every thing happens twice including love.
    I heard this in 'Bones' show.Somehow, I could never agree to this.I bet any person on this earth could never  convince me,I am so stubborn right??

    Hope the souls of people who lost their lives coz of Tornado may rest in peace.