Now before I go ahead telling you the story,I take pride in introducing my Best Friend Tanu,who is innocent,charming,sensitive,bubbling and full of fun.I know her right from my childhood,so I can easily guess her decisions and attitude.She is so close to me and thrusts me more than a family member.That's why I knew each and everything that happened in her life & why today I lost her.
Tanu and Abhinav are best friends from their high school & care alot for each other.'A' proposed her in 12th class,but Tanu didn't accept the proposal,and indeed didn't believe that he proposed her.She felt so sorry for him,blaming herself,that in one way or the other she might be responsible for his feelings.So she decided not to speak to him anymore,so that it would be for the better cause.Years passed and finally they lost touch with each other.Her life would have been much better if the relation ended-up there and then itself.
Tanu's friend Navya,made a prank by informing 'A' that Tanu got an accident and was badly injured.Concerned 'A' left a scrap 'Get well soon'.In an online chat Tanu came to know that 'A' was so concerned about her,so decided to be friends once again.Unfortunately after some days,'A' proposed to Tanu,her response was positive.The next day she told me she accepted the proposal.Awestruck,I asked her 'Do you love him?'.There came a Big NOOOOOOO!!Then I asked her what's this?She simply told me,somewhere she likes him,but she don't love him & guess she was in truce yesterday so the answer was 'yes'.I warned her,that he don't belong to our caste and your parents are not going to accept this at any cost.She simple replied 'I know I don't love him,but he was so happy yesterday,I can't spoil it.I care a lot for him,you might point out that he might not suit me but that doesn't matter as long as he loves me,he will handle my parents'.
They were happy for an year.I know 'A' always mutters 'I LOVE YOU' to her,he never misses saying these words.He is studying in IIT's and aspires to become a scientist,when I asked which one do you prefer Scientist or Tanu?He replied 'I will be happy to receive an award as a scientist if Tanu is beside me,if I don't have a life with her,it doesn't matter what I am.Simply I am no more.My life ends there,at that movement.You can never find me,not any social-networking sites or whatever.I will just live my life for my parents'.When I thought about them I used to think,they are made for each-other and Tanu is the most luckiest girl in the world.Tanu used to always tell 'A',that no matter what happens even if they are separated she still cares for him her entire life,just the way she cares now.Tanu used to warn 'A' that our relation may not work-out,coz we are different castes,even then she want to see a smile on his face and if really that situation arises,she would prefer to leave the earth & pray for that.
One fine day,'A' came to chat with Tanu,he mentioned that this relation isn't going to happen.She simply asked the reason.He told 'PERSONAL'.The once-upon-a-time his soulmate,life,love had now become a stranger for him.She begged him to tell the reason,so she can lead a normal life again,not pitying herself that she had been deceived.The answer is simple 'I am busy,DON'T DISTURB','Stop IRRITATING me'.Finally one day he came up with the answer that,he came to know the fact that his BC and financially week.Rubbish.Couldn't he come up with a better reason or a bitter fact.She told him that it didn't matter,and she will offer the possible financial help,he simply called her 'MONEY-MINDED',and told that her caste matters to his family.Finally one day he let it out,he don't have any FEELINGS for her.
She was left alone,all the way.I remembered the days she tried desperately to call him,sobbed till 4am or 5am,skipped her meals,stayed in the rest rooms thinking of him.She was so obsessed that she wasn't able to find any option left except killing herself.She was so innocent and vulnerable that still she called him and explained her situation asking him to just be as friend,and speak politely.She wasn't even lucky to have her minor wish fulfilled.I need to agree that he was patient with her,listened to her when she sobbed and complained for the first few weeks,later he gave-up.But he never realized that he was just listening to her problems,and it's she who is paying for what he had done.
He proposed.
He went around her.
He called her soul-mate.
He told her,his life in incomplete without her.
He told he needed her.
He finally quit.
When I asked about it,he simply replied 'Our relation will never end with a friendship,so this is the only way we can get parted.'.Foolish or Bullshit.I don't know what to call.Why can't he explain his situation,I know my friend is mature enough to understand his problems.But he never understood that or anything about my friend.He was so caring & loving with her,when he thought he loved her.The movement he declared a BREAK-UP,he just ignored her,even when she was admitted in the hospital for an operation.He neither called her,when we asked why?He told that he assumed it was a minor operation & Tanu itself told him that she was okay.She felt so bad for calling him in the last movement before her operation when everyone expected that she had no chances of surviving.
Today,she is neither sobbing nor complaining about him.She is not caring about anything anymore.She changed.No.I think she was lost,some where behind the trees & far away so that one couldn't even peep at her.Today I don't see my friend Tanu any more.She never speaks to anyone other than her family members.She doesn't believe in man,god or who-ever-it-is.She loves solitude.She loves burying herself in books & work,so she doesn't remember any of her past.Now she is invulnerable,she don't have anything to loose.She is not afraid of the world anymore.
Except we are worried about you.
You don't deserve this,for deciding not to grab his happiness by telling him the fact that you don't love him,its just an accident that the words are uttered.
Love You.
I don't know its whose mistake for Tanu being left alone,I couldn't blame anyone,both are my friends.What do you guys think?
