Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The moment I despised mankind

 Now before I go ahead telling you the story,I take pride in introducing my Best Friend Tanu,who is innocent,charming,sensitive,bubbling and full of fun.I know her right from my childhood,so I can easily guess her decisions and attitude.She is so close to me and thrusts me more than a family member.That's why I knew each and everything that happened in her life & why today I lost her.

Tanu and Abhinav are best friends from their high school & care alot for each other.'A' proposed her in 12th class,but Tanu didn't accept the proposal,and indeed didn't believe that he proposed her.She felt so sorry for him,blaming herself,that in one way or the other she might be responsible for his feelings.So she decided not to speak to him anymore,so that it would be for the better cause.Years passed and finally they lost touch with each other.Her life would have been much better if the relation ended-up there and then itself.

Tanu's friend Navya,made a prank by informing 'A' that Tanu got an accident and was badly injured.Concerned 'A' left a scrap 'Get well soon'.In an online chat Tanu came to know that 'A' was so concerned about her,so decided to be friends once again.Unfortunately after some days,'A' proposed to Tanu,her response was positive.The next day she told me she accepted the proposal.Awestruck,I asked her 'Do you love him?'.There came a Big NOOOOOOO!!Then I asked her what's this?She simply told me,somewhere she likes him,but she don't love him & guess she was in truce yesterday so the answer was  'yes'.I warned her,that he don't belong to our caste and your parents are not going to accept this at any cost.She simple replied 'I know I don't love him,but he was so happy yesterday,I can't spoil it.I care a lot for him,you might point out that he might not suit me but that doesn't matter as long as he loves me,he will handle my parents'.

They were happy for an year.I know 'A' always mutters 'I LOVE YOU' to her,he never misses saying these words.He is studying in IIT's and aspires to become a scientist,when I asked which one do you prefer Scientist or Tanu?He replied 'I will be happy to receive an award as a scientist if Tanu is beside me,if I don't have a life with her,it doesn't matter what I am.Simply I am no more.My life ends there,at that movement.You can never find me,not any social-networking sites or whatever.I will just live my life for my parents'.When I thought about them I used to think,they are made for each-other and Tanu is the most luckiest girl in the world.Tanu used to always tell 'A',that no matter what happens even if they are separated she still cares for him her entire life,just the way she cares now.Tanu used to warn 'A' that our relation may not work-out,coz we are different castes,even then she want to see a smile on his face and if really that situation arises,she would prefer to leave the earth & pray for that.

One fine day,'A' came to chat with Tanu,he mentioned that this relation isn't going to happen.She simply asked the reason.He told 'PERSONAL'.The once-upon-a-time his soulmate,life,love had now become a stranger for him.She begged him to tell the reason,so she can lead a normal life again,not pitying herself that she had been deceived.The answer is simple 'I am busy,DON'T DISTURB','Stop IRRITATING me'.Finally one day he came up with the answer that,he came to know the fact that his BC and financially week.Rubbish.Couldn't he come up with  a better reason or a bitter fact.She told him that it didn't matter,and she will offer the possible financial help,he simply called her 'MONEY-MINDED',and told that her caste matters to his family.Finally one day he let it out,he don't have any FEELINGS for her.

She was left alone,all the way.I remembered the days she tried desperately to call him,sobbed till 4am or 5am,skipped her meals,stayed in the rest rooms thinking of him.She was so obsessed that she wasn't able to find any option left except killing herself.She was so innocent and vulnerable that still she called him and explained her situation asking him to just be as friend,and speak politely.She wasn't even lucky to have her minor wish fulfilled.I need to agree that he was patient with her,listened to her when she sobbed and complained for the first few weeks,later he gave-up.But he never realized that he was just listening to her problems,and it's she who is paying for what he had done.
He proposed.
He went around her.
He called her soul-mate.
He told her,his life in incomplete without her.
He told he needed her.
He finally quit.

When I asked about it,he simply replied 'Our relation will never end with a friendship,so this is the only way we can get parted.'.Foolish or Bullshit.I don't know what to call.Why can't he explain his situation,I know my friend is mature enough to understand his problems.But he never understood that or anything about my friend.He was so caring & loving with her,when he thought he loved her.The movement he declared a BREAK-UP,he just ignored her,even when she was admitted in the hospital for an operation.He neither called her,when we asked why?He told that he assumed it was a minor operation & Tanu itself told him that she was okay.She felt so bad for calling him in the last movement before her operation when everyone expected that she had no chances of surviving.

Today,she is neither sobbing nor complaining about him.She is not caring about anything anymore.She changed.No.I think she was lost,some where behind the trees & far away so that one couldn't even peep at her.Today I don't see my friend Tanu any more.She never speaks to anyone other than her family members.She doesn't believe in man,god or who-ever-it-is.She loves solitude.She loves burying herself in books & work,so she doesn't remember any of her past.Now she is invulnerable,she don't have anything to loose.She is not afraid of the world anymore.
Except we are worried about you.
You don't deserve this,for deciding not to grab his happiness by telling him the fact that you don't love him,its just an accident that the words are uttered.
Love You.

I don't know its whose mistake for Tanu being left alone,I couldn't blame anyone,both are my friends.What do you guys think?

Saturday, January 1, 2011

My picks

LOVE:
Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.



HOPE:
Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong. Even a stopped clock is right twice a day



DREAM:
When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things happen in their lives everyday; that the sun rise.



FAITH:
None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith


LIFE:
I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living now.



JOY
Remember, the first road to God is prayer, the second is joy.




REALITY
In fairy tales, the princesses kiss the frogs, and the frogs become princes. In real life, the pricesses kiss princes, and the princes turn into frogs.




                                                                                                                          - Paulo Coelho

 P.S:Finally now I am in US & from the bottom of my heart,I am regretting my stubbornness for clinging to the phrase 'I will go to US & ...'.
I am jus lying on the bed and embracing my comfort(rug) all the time,feeling nothing & I don't have any interest for watching,reading,eating,sleeping & even blogging.So finally I am not enjoying.Hope this weather sets soon for me.

P.P.S:I didn't have any new year party & it's dull,hope you all enjoyed.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Adios 2010

Hello my dear friends,
Today I feel blissed.I have been issued visa & I am going to fly abroad next week.There are so many things to be completed like shopping,packing & all the stuff.But here I am in Hyderabad,cursing the environment & licking my lips continuously(Shit!!bad habitt).And guys do you know something,I didn't inherit anything from my mom,neither the culinary skills nor the copying skills.Interesting huh??Let me explain the situation.

Me:Mom which dress suits me better for visa interview??

Mom: *thinking*

Me:Shell I try that Masakhali dress??

Mom:Try to look decent & don't you know the cotton dresses looks formal??

Me: Okay,i will stick to it

------------After one day---------------------

Mom:By the way which dress did R prefer??

Me:Masakhali

Mom:Okay,then why don't you prefer that??Look at her,who told her...and you...and blah blah..

Me:*awestruck*  Mom it's you who told me to pick-up the cotton one.

Mom:How come I know about your dressing style??

Me:*Shut my mouth,coz even I prefer the Masakali*

Mom:Which color is her dress??

Me:Green

Mom:Okay then choose a green dress.

Me:I don't have a green Masakhali dress momm

Mom:You inform me everything in the last movement,now in 30min we have to catch a bus & leave the station.If you have told me yesterday,we would have done the shopping,even you would be the same green Masakhali dress,so you too might get the visa easily.

Me:*Rolling my eyes*

Cousin:*ROFL* This is too much.

......Mamaa,copy karne ke liye bhi ek hadh hai...

Guess this my last post this year..Goodbye 2010..You have given me a sack of memories,never mind whether they are good or bad,I treasure them in the bottom of my heart.Today I feel like I have grown-up capable of facing everything & sturdy,I have seen life from different dimensions from the past few months.Okay,I stop.

Advanced Christmas & New Year Wishes!!!!!!Rock On!!!!!


I raise a toast to good times & welcome year 2011.Wishing you eternal bliss and hope new year brings you a fresh start with a superb time ahead.