Frenzy Friday..

Usually I love friday's,waiting for weekend.But today I am feeling agonized.Last two weeks have been so perfect,I received admit mail from every college I applied to.

*Did I mention I am planning to do MS??*

The reporting date is exactly one month away.I didn't receive the letters from the college I chose to go & the work is being piled up.I don't know how to stay calm.Even in my dreams I am ending up with these paper-work.So I woke up early morning,not understanding what to do or at least how to fall asleep.The empty chocolate case played it's role in making my mood much worst.There are innumerable juggling thoughts surrounding me & so many 'what if's' embracing me.

What if I don't receive my I20 in time??
What if the required visa dates ain't available??
What if the processing of documents aren't completed??
What if the college doesn't provide the late-approval letter??
What if the visa is rejected??
What if I don't have time to reapply the visa??

I have read some where that the most dangerous/sucking/irritating/annoying word in English is 'W',coz all the worries start with it.
Who?
Why?
What?
When?
Whom?
Which?
Where?
What if?
War!
Wine! 
*Guys stop searching for 'Women' or 'Wife'*
Its so true...Now,my story has become a sobbing story.Hope everything sets fine.Till then, me signing-off.
I need your wishes & blessing.So wish me 'All the best' buddies.
Ciao

Secrets..

I remember very well once my friend told me 'Secrets will be as secrets only if one person knows it,if others have the slightest clue..it will never be a secret'.I never understood the significance of that,but with some experiences I think I need to agree with her completely.
Its sooo true!!
Let me tell you what hurts the most is not that the secret is revealed,but to face the fact that the person you trusted a lot let you down. Some even don't apologize.Shittt!! I hate such creatures.

I know all these gossips,rumors & secrets looks more spicy than Page3 reviews,but still how can one do that??When one tells you something and gives the label 'TOP SECRET',then just shut your mouth.Okay?
Guys!!Let me tell you something, never let any person loose thrust in you.Life's too short and too complicated.Only few people enter into our lives,with true intentions so never ever loose them in your life.

P.S:I had a function in my house enjoyed a lot and still enjoying....You too have a great weekend buddies!!

Everything is perfect outside..

I choose this topic now, coz I thought this is most pertinent in my present situation.In my college days, I love working, no matter whether its a great corporate job or an ordinary job,but now I hate working not coz I need to put my effort,but my first job experience had given me the worst experience and a lot to know about India and its corruption.

I always thought why there is such a hue and cry for each and everything in India??

But today I decided India deserves that,jus coz WE Indians are that dumb/shallow and whatnot..

Let me tell you why I decided to scribble something about this post.If you have seen my previous post you can understand that I am working as a Asst.Professor.So I love to give lectures (Not the subjects..yaar) about India and how we can  develop it.But today...I am helpless,I am tired of everything.

Here are somethings which I can't tell to anyone,coz everyone know them..But none does anything..
1. Longback there was an INSPECTION ,each and everything what they had showed in the records is a bullshit.We dont have proper lab facilities,proper teaching and non-teaching faculties,not even a canteen facility etc etc.But whats wrong with the Inspecting officers?? Cant they see the unplugged computers,malfunctioning labs,Improper facilities,darn infrastructure and most important lack of faculty(3 in IT department and they claim 12,WTF!!).I shut my mouth coz I had submitted my certificates and don't have the proof of my submission.I know I am a bum.

2.Our fucking college don't even spare the students,collecting money from students without proper reason,claiming the credit to lack of attendence and passing a circular 'if they don't pay,they will not be given hall ticket'.I don't think there will be a better reason than this to black-mail a student.I couldn't blame the students for shutting their mouths all the time,coz I had been in that shoe and I had done the same.

3.Ours is a minority college.We get a loaddssssss of funds from the government,but none will be reached to students,If students are so persistent then the fee-reimbursement might be reached after 2 years.I dont really understand one thing,why should minorities and backward castes should be given importance?They say all are equal before law,and use the terms minorities,backward and scheduled castes.If you are a student then you seat in a college should solely depend upon your marks certificate,not your caste certificate.This is the most important thing which should be changed,coz claiming an annual income of 40,000 per annum isn't a difficult task and and finally thet come in Maruti's to collect their scholarships(no puns intended guys..)

I hate myself for being a puppet and watching everything.
I hate my colleagues  who never complain about anything,even if its illegal.
I hate for not having any support,when I am speaking the truth.
I hate for the bribers and the routine work in India "grease one's palms".

I always thought that one day India will be developed.We dont have this corruption,irrigation problems,filthy drianage system,unhygenic loos any more....even today I retain the feeling..but somewhere amiss,the notion is lost.

They always say India is a developing country.I hope atleast I can say to my great-granddaughter that India is a developed country.

P.S:I will continue the rest after my resignation...And that's not so far.....