Why me??

I am devastated.Completely. Yes, I am stuck in between ASSHOLES who never knows how to enjoy their life.They can lead a luxurious life, but all they do is interrupt me or irritate me.Why on Earth I need to bother about them & answer them??I don't want my pride to come down, of course I don't have much left & my dignity tank is absolutely empty.

I learned to survive.Yeah!!True man!!I got a job.Not worthy mentioning after such a big wait....But yeah I got it,right??I am a student manager in our University Center.I am not a biggy.Yet I make some bucks every month.I cook,I laundry,I clean,I study(probably 2 hours in 3 days :(  ) and I do my shopping too :D . I have a lot of things to do, but you know I am free all the time.Jus for a change I thought of vacuuming my entire apartment.Yeah I had done it & guess what happened??My roomie came and started doing it again.I asked why??She said all the lines are not G-R-I-D, she like them that way.Do you believe guys??I was awestruck.Unfortunately all my roomies are suffering with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.May god bless their prospective life partners.

Yeah!!Here is my short conversation with my dearest friend:)
Me : Hey I am asking my parents to send a cheque of X060$, that will be enough na?
He : Nope, ask for X100$
Me : But why?My  fees is X061.66$ and it included insurance too.
He : I jus rounded it.
Me : I already done that X061.66 to X060,do you see that?
He : But 100 at the ending sounds perfect.
Me : I am not sure whether I am gonna get back that 40$ or not.
He : Still X100 makes a perfect number.
Me : Think about it, 40$ that means 1600Rupess(I always have this $-Rupee converter active in my mind:P).Do you think that makes sense?/
He : But Numerically we always round the number in the best possible way.Noting makes sense more than this:)
Me : Okay. *Mr.Junior Monk*

Thank God.Finally he agreed with me.Wow such a good, funny and great friend.I am sure he will be reading this.So waiting for the reaction:)

P.S: Watched ZNMD. Guess it didn't reach my expectations :(

30 day challenge

Today while blogging I found something interesting, 30-day challenge. I thought that would be fun & started taking it, so hope one day all of you too will take it up.

But I promise myself(which means I promise you) not to reveal any of my pictures.

*Stop feeling bad, I think i will post my wedding pics..So wait for it :) *

A recent picture of you  you had taken and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

I seriously don't know the meaning of interesting, coz everything around me seems so boring to me:(

 This is when I am preparing for my sem examz.I love my room this way:)

1.I am a day-to-day struggler, trying so hard to please myself and people around me.

2.I like to have ice-cream when it rains.

3.I am not good at starting conversation, esp with strangers & so-far relatives.

4.I cry while watching serials/pictures/reading novels where a heroine/hero dumps the other & later falls in love with other person, and realizes their previous love is an infatuation.

5.I believe in ghosts/spirits & I will call some one in India if I had to step out of my room in the night.

6.I like to watch sad songs & write dull poems all the time.

7.I have had my heart-broken after watching 'Yaadein' & remembering he was married:P

8.I had number of friends, but many let me down in difficult situations & never understood me.

9.I am not 'beauty conscious', at least not to the extent people think I am.

10.I was missed twice & so my mom never let me to step out of the house alone(excluding college, that too most of the time I had a friend with me).

11.Many of my friends tell me, I behave 'childish'.

12.One day I love to visit Venice,Mt.Abu & Lahore(I don't know why but I like the word 'Lahore').

13.I always think I would have studied well if I am placed in Hogwarts.

14.If I loose impression once, it's hard for me to mingle with them again.

15.I love making fun of my sister, she reacts too fast & gets annoyed easily:)

It's not an ordinary day..

So the bad news is Tornado hit Missouri on May 24h,2011. Today it's our KC's turn , so I am bit tensed,nervous and excited.I was so busy reading MONK novel ,simultaneously chit-chatting with a friend completely ignorant about the siren indicating Tornado alert.Suddenly my door bell rang and I completely realized the situation is bit critical , all of us ran to the basement.I called to India, terrified them to hell.After some time when everything is fine, I went back and stared cooking broccoli-&-tomato, guess what??It's delicious :) .

Then I went to my friend's house and feasted on Chicken specials while watching the Kisna's movie.The plot of the movie is so simple or I don't want to exaggerate it, so I would come to point directly for those who didn't watch the movie.

Kisna had a childhood friend Cathy(foreigner) , who returns to their village after years.Lakshmi loves Kisna & wants to marry him.Both get engaged.In between you have some fights between Indians and British.People decide to kill Cathy, Kisna while rescuing her , realizes they share much more strong bond than friendship.But at the end he says that its his responsibility to go back to Lakshmi.At the end Lakshmi says that she realized (Late)Kisna never loved her , his love belongs to Cathy alone.Cathy too says the same.

Now I have few questions, please give me your opinions:
1.Don't you think it would have been better if he had spend the rest of his life with Cathy?
2.Guys do you really believe love happens only once??

Now let me tell you my opinions:
1.Cathy would have been better,Lakshmi would die in pain realizing Kisna had never loved her, jus stayed with her...which are as different as heaven and hell.
2.What happens once in our life, happens again.This universe is infinitely large & extends to infinity in both extremes.So have faith,every thing happens twice including love.
I heard this in 'Bones' show.Somehow, I could never agree to this.I bet any person on this earth could never  convince me,I am so stubborn right??

Hope the souls of people who lost their lives coz of Tornado may rest in peace.

Freud's & Lucky's Philosophy..

According to Freud's psychology, Infatuation is only an attraction between male and female and it’s a state of being completely carried away by unreason passion, foolish examined feeling and unappreciated often completely unwarranted emotion .

According to Lucky's psychology, if you see a female who longs to be with a male but refuses to admit openly of what she feels. When she is afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that her feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But he can recognize her feelings by seeing her conscious effort to be connected with him even if he hurts her slowly within. This is called Love.
*It works out the same way by interchanging genders.*
(Modified from Freud's Philosophy of human beings:))

My results are out.I got 3.9/4:)
I am chooooo happy and I am grateful to Lucky for helping me with my Client-Server Projects.Here's a small gift Lucky.

 I know you are not a great fan of chocolates, esp the dark ones.

 Ask Jeff to do pan cakes for you, then guide me how to do it:)

Girls like Chocolates & boys love Ice-creams, your saying or whatever.

But its funny.Lollll

 Vindhya, give him a treat.
Order Mocha-Frappuccino.

You hate cats and you love shoes.

But in life both comes as a package,so be ready to accept.

Aren't they cute.So lovely,helpful and generous.

Same as you are.

You like Ink-pens.But I like features,ink bottle,table-light.

The way they describe in books.

Why do love books by the way?

Okay,now I am giving you the best gift.

Let's be forever friends.So next time we have a fight, head for me and tail for you.Toss the coin & mail me if it's head,then I will talk to you first.If it's tail, you have to approach me first.

No more Social Networking:(

I am generally a tech-savvy(or I like to think it that way)  & always addicted to FB,Orkut & Twitter.I love my orkut account , but trend shifted to FB and that's what made me to create a Face Book account  I am never attached to it , the way I am attached to my blog/Orkut. Yet these social-networking sites help me a lot when I feel lonely(That's what I feel most of the time).But I don't know why I deleted my Orkut , Twitter & de-activated my FB account last week.
How does this sound ?? *wierddd??*

Hey by the way do you have the habit of writing a diary??
One of the happy movements of my day are when I write the words

'Dear Diary,'.

P.S : My life is terrible right now.No part-time job.Projects sucking.Screwed up the exam.Shit life!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.

 

 

See you and me have a better time than most can dream of, better than the best, so we can pull on through, whatever tears at us, whatever holds us down, and if nothing can be done, we'll make the best of what's around.

 

 

P.S : I don't know why but from the past week I am continuously playing the same song.Might be life becomes so hard for us sometimes.But right now I have no worries except enjoying my busy schedule:)

Invisible Mask!!!

I love myself for having so many nostalgic movements including the ones that left me bitter , this makes me realize I am just an ordinary soul full of emotions.I always thought myself as an human being with mask all the time so people around me can never try to decipher who I am.

But I never predicted people around me are also in the mask that prevented me from diagonalizing who they are.Their lives are filled with emotions & sickness that's making them collapse & prevent them from moving towards the future.

Today I gave a call to 'G',whom I have known from childhood.By the end of the call I realized all of us living in the world or much better trying to live in the world that's completely invisible to our human eye.I never thought of 'G' as a person who had emotions behind his witticism.Relations are so complex & we can never loose the charm of  'first-love',doesn't matter how hard we try.The words still echoes in my ears 'Somehow bring me out of this!!!!!'.

One thing that's positive about relations is they bring out the actual 'you' within yourself,the one you never imagined,the one you never thought,the one you never predicted and the one who you never are.There are some positive things about nostalgia , this tells us how precious other humans are & how unique you are from others.

I lost two of my close friends in the name of 'Love',one who left the world & the other whose just no more than zombie.The movement I lost them,I lost myself & the 'belief' I had in relationships.From the day I  never thought of any relationship other than family.When I meant family , I mean purely blood-relation.But today after speaking with 'G' I felt like there are so many unsaid & truly felt emotions behind every mask.

It's been years since I trusted in any men.I am avoiding them as much as possible,I couldn't imagine myself in Tanu's position.But guess I am wrong.I need to give a try.I need to enjoy each & every relation that humans are destined.

I am an ordinary soul who is always busy running from relations.....I am afraid I might be hurt....But today guess I am a bit changed.....I will start enjoying the life the way I deserve......I am proud of myself......I am one lucky girl to have things around me happening the way they should.....


P.S : It's spring-break from today!!!!!!!Hip-hip-hurray!!!
Lots of Love buddies.....

How What Where Who You

I am tagging this to all who come and have a look at this.So enjoy yourself:)

Ten How's?

1.How did you get one of your scars?
 When I was a kid,I fell on the road.Sweet Memories:P
2. How did you celebrate your last birthday?
I didn't celebrate:(
3. How are you feeling at this moment?
Awful
4. How did your night go last night?
Having a fight with a room-mate,for the most ridiculous thing.
5. How did you do in high school?
I am good at sports,but not that good at studies.
6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
I bought it in a discount offer.
7. How often do you see your best friend(s)?
We had parted only one month back.But from now I hardly see her.
8. How much money did you spend last month?
The way one couldn't imagine.I decided to become a money-saving spree from this month.
9. How old do you want to be when you get married?
25 I guess
10. How old will you be at your next birthday?
Shhh!Never ask girl's age & boy's salary.You will never get the truth:)

Nine What's?

1. Your mothers name? 
Lakshmi Rajyam
2. What did you do last weekend?
Assignments & I was hectic till neck deep!!
3. What is the most important part of your life?
My family & earning a good position in the society
4. What would you rather be doing?
Sleeping
5. What did you last cry over?
When I saw my AT & T bill.
(Are they going to pay me something for the publicity here?)
6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
I watch Ekta Kapoor serial:P
7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? 
Mutual Understanding,love & care.(Most important things)
8. What are you worried about?
When will I get a well-paid job?
9. What did you have for breakfast?
I didn't have my breakfast.

Eight you’s?

1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope!!
2. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yep!!When I realized that Hrithik Roshan is married.Lol
3. Have you ever been out of the country?
Yes,currently I am out of my country.
4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
I bet there are loads.
5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yeah!!
6. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
I am not married,remember!!
7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
I am from a traditional family,you never find the words-dating,love in my dictionary.
8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yes.
Dan Brown's-Angels & Demons.
Sidney Sheldon's - Tell me your dreams.

Seven Who's:

1. Who was the last person you saw?
My room-mate Sarvani.
2. Who was the last person you texted?
My Sweet sister.
3. Who was the last person you hung out with?
My friends,Yesterday.
4. Who was the last person to call you?
My parents.
5. Who did you last hug?
My mom:)
6. Who is the last person who texted you?
My sister.
7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?
No one:)

Six Where's:

1.Where does your best friend(s) live?
In India,Andra Pradesh.
2. Where did you last go?
To Walmart.
3. Where did you last hang out?
In my room
4. Where do you go to school?
In Vijayawada.
5. Where is your favorite place to be?
Beach condo.
6. Where did you sleep last night?
 In my bed.

Five do’s:

1. Do you think anyone likes you?
My family & I believe there are still lot of good souls.
2. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
No!!Never.
3. Do you know the muffin man?
Heeee!!Nooo!!
4. Does the future scare you?
I am scared by myself ,there is no need for anything to scare me in this world.
5.Do you love yourself?
I bet my life!!

Four Why's:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
Need to do a survey.
2. Why did you get into Blogging?
Because I have plenty of useless time:)
3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Dunno why!!But wanna know it.Couldn't they find a better name?
But I like the meaning of my name 'worshipping black clouds',but doesn't it look weird if I explain the meaning of my name for all those who ask my name?
4. Why are you doing this survey?
I am irritated/vexed/annoyed/confused/pissed off right now.

Three if's:

1. If you could have one super power what would it be?
It would be owing a time-traveller,I want to be a kid once again.
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? 
 I don't have regrets for anything,each & every thing in my life made a great impact on who I am today.
3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring?
Blackberry

Two-would-you-ever:

1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
Out of question.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
I hope such situation doesn't arrive,but if it arrives I will stay close to them.

 One Last Question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?
Don't you think it's better not to find answers for such questions?

This week rocks

This week had been so pleasant full.
I am happy now,not that it's a week-end(any have weekends doesn't matter 4 students here,which is quite opposite in India).
I have learned so many things in this month,so now I am going to share these with you & give you some 'ghyaan'.

• Never mind what problems you have,jus wish the persons surrounding you with a warm smile.
• Life is percious, don't worry for sappy things.
• I am learning how to be patient & self-organize things with out complaining(much),so you to give a try.Trust me,you feel like you achieved one of the world's greatest things.
• Never take any one/any thing for granted,you will know the value once you loose them.
• Never judge a book by the author.Seriously,I love Dan Brown but his 'The lost symbol' as well as Stephenie Meyer's 'The Host' sucks.
• This is your life,live the way you love too.Don't let others to make fuss about it.Jus ask them to 'SHUT-UP'.
• Never set rules & regulations,you loose respect for yourself if don't follow them.
• Don't be busy in mundane life,enjoy it.Go get enrolled in gym or salsa class.Sports too rock.
• Try to be good with others,if they don't co-operate, ask them to go for a hike.It's not your head-ache.
• Last but not the least, watch 'guzaarish' movie.It lifts your spirits.

P.S:I love Americans,for some reason.The first & foremost reason is, they canceled my AT & T bill when I informed I am an international student & it's just a mistake.Isn't it Great??The movement AT & T customer care valla called me to inform this,I thought to scream 'Muwaah!!I love you':)

I am grateful I had a brother,else I couldn't decide how to handle this.

P.P.S:Thanks 'A' for the mail,I had done what you advised me.It worked.Thanks a lot:)

1000$

I have never seen a 1000$ note & seriously never thought about.But unfortunately today that's the only thing that's popping out of my mind.Noo!!I didn't get my first pay-check or something of that sort.Today I got a call from my bro & informed me that last month's phone bill is a super-duper hit,your friend called directly to India,she might not have used calling card.When I checked the bill payment,I was awestruck to know that it's my mom's new number.I had done a research to know why this happened.Later came to know that this is the only number(partially true) which isn't assigned another 'a-direct-call-number'.Now let me explain this complicated situation,since we use the great free  'AT & T' network(& we have a family plan,)most of the numbers that bro assigned a direct numbers(So he don't need to repeat the tedious process by calling 'Rebtel'-calling card then typing 91+Phone no.)are common to both of us.So he just gave me the numbers.Story is fine till here.But when I called to any other numbers by using calling card,it charged me a fortune.Since most of the calls ended-up with my mom's new number,I am not on that edge of the cliff.

God who knows about the next months bill,from the past two days I didn't sleep and busy with international call so I am sure the bill will go beyond the reach.I don't know whom to yell at,that rebtel company for not giving a proper connection,or myself for dialing 011+91+no. when my bro asked to dial only last two-parts.Nooo!!It's not my mistake, when I dialed 91+no., it told that there's an error in connection.So I used 'my revolutionary mind at work' and attached a front part.So there must be some error some where.Kher chod dho!!All I want is,not to pay the bill,but not to discuss about 'whose fault is this'.So please god bless me,so that something might happen and I don't need to pay this 1000$ bill.So that with the same amount I can enroll in 'Guitar class' and complete it successfully(With the change left I can even have lays my entire semester).

God I even need a part time badly,especially after I joined 'save the mobile companies' program.This is my online request,please take it into consideration ASAP.(No puns intended!!)

Tricky Life

"The tricky thing about life is too often you don't know what's important until the moment passes."

Insomnia

"Some things were better off left buried."

             

P.S : I want to dedicate this post to my assignment,I feel it's better buried so it doesn't bother me any more leading to Insomnia.

The moment I despised mankind

 Now before I go ahead telling you the story,I take pride in introducing my Best Friend Tanu,who is innocent,charming,sensitive,bubbling and full of fun.I know her right from my childhood,so I can easily guess her decisions and attitude.She is so close to me and thrusts me more than a family member.That's why I knew each and everything that happened in her life & why today I lost her.

Tanu and Abhinav are best friends from their high school & care alot for each other.'A' proposed her in 12th class,but Tanu didn't accept the proposal,and indeed didn't believe that he proposed her.She felt so sorry for him,blaming herself,that in one way or the other she might be responsible for his feelings.So she decided not to speak to him anymore,so that it would be for the better cause.Years passed and finally they lost touch with each other.Her life would have been much better if the relation ended-up there and then itself.

Tanu's friend Navya,made a prank by informing 'A' that Tanu got an accident and was badly injured.Concerned 'A' left a scrap 'Get well soon'.In an online chat Tanu came to know that 'A' was so concerned about her,so decided to be friends once again.Unfortunately after some days,'A' proposed to Tanu,her response was positive.The next day she told me she accepted the proposal.Awestruck,I asked her 'Do you love him?'.There came a Big NOOOOOOO!!Then I asked her what's this?She simply told me,somewhere she likes him,but she don't love him & guess she was in truce yesterday so the answer was  'yes'.I warned her,that he don't belong to our caste and your parents are not going to accept this at any cost.She simple replied 'I know I don't love him,but he was so happy yesterday,I can't spoil it.I care a lot for him,you might point out that he might not suit me but that doesn't matter as long as he loves me,he will handle my parents'.

They were happy for an year.I know 'A' always mutters 'I LOVE YOU' to her,he never misses saying these words.He is studying in IIT's and aspires to become a scientist,when I asked which one do you prefer Scientist or Tanu?He replied 'I will be happy to receive an award as a scientist if Tanu is beside me,if I don't have a life with her,it doesn't matter what I am.Simply I am no more.My life ends there,at that movement.You can never find me,not any social-networking sites or whatever.I will just live my life for my parents'.When I thought about them I used to think,they are made for each-other and Tanu is the most luckiest girl in the world.Tanu used to always tell 'A',that no matter what happens even if they are separated she still cares for him her entire life,just the way she cares now.Tanu used to warn 'A' that our relation may not work-out,coz we are different castes,even then she want to see a smile on his face and if really that situation arises,she would prefer to leave the earth & pray for that.

One fine day,'A' came to chat with Tanu,he mentioned that this relation isn't going to happen.She simply asked the reason.He told 'PERSONAL'.The once-upon-a-time his soulmate,life,love had now become a stranger for him.She begged him to tell the reason,so she can lead a normal life again,not pitying herself that she had been deceived.The answer is simple 'I am busy,DON'T DISTURB','Stop IRRITATING me'.Finally one day he came up with the answer that,he came to know the fact that his BC and financially week.Rubbish.Couldn't he come up with  a better reason or a bitter fact.She told him that it didn't matter,and she will offer the possible financial help,he simply called her 'MONEY-MINDED',and told that her caste matters to his family.Finally one day he let it out,he don't have any FEELINGS for her.

She was left alone,all the way.I remembered the days she tried desperately to call him,sobbed till 4am or 5am,skipped her meals,stayed in the rest rooms thinking of him.She was so obsessed that she wasn't able to find any option left except killing herself.She was so innocent and vulnerable that still she called him and explained her situation asking him to just be as friend,and speak politely.She wasn't even lucky to have her minor wish fulfilled.I need to agree that he was patient with her,listened to her when she sobbed and complained for the first few weeks,later he gave-up.But he never realized that he was just listening to her problems,and it's she who is paying for what he had done.
He proposed.
He went around her.
He called her soul-mate.
He told her,his life in incomplete without her.
He told he needed her.
He finally quit.

When I asked about it,he simply replied 'Our relation will never end with a friendship,so this is the only way we can get parted.'.Foolish or Bullshit.I don't know what to call.Why can't he explain his situation,I know my friend is mature enough to understand his problems.But he never understood that or anything about my friend.He was so caring & loving with her,when he thought he loved her.The movement he declared a BREAK-UP,he just ignored her,even when she was admitted in the hospital for an operation.He neither called her,when we asked why?He told that he assumed it was a minor operation & Tanu itself told him that she was okay.She felt so bad for calling him in the last movement before her operation when everyone expected that she had no chances of surviving.

Today,she is neither sobbing nor complaining about him.She is not caring about anything anymore.She changed.No.I think she was lost,some where behind the trees & far away so that one couldn't even peep at her.Today I don't see my friend Tanu any more.She never speaks to anyone other than her family members.She doesn't believe in man,god or who-ever-it-is.She loves solitude.She loves burying herself in books & work,so she doesn't remember any of her past.Now she is invulnerable,she don't have anything to loose.She is not afraid of the world anymore.
Except we are worried about you.
You don't deserve this,for deciding not to grab his happiness by telling him the fact that you don't love him,its just an accident that the words are uttered.
Love You.

I don't know its whose mistake for Tanu being left alone,I couldn't blame anyone,both are my friends.What do you guys think?

Adios 2010

Hello my dear friends,
Today I feel blissed.I have been issued visa & I am going to fly abroad next week.There are so many things to be completed like shopping,packing & all the stuff.But here I am in Hyderabad,cursing the environment & licking my lips continuously(Shit!!bad habitt).And guys do you know something,I didn't inherit anything from my mom,neither the culinary skills nor the copying skills.Interesting huh??Let me explain the situation.

Me:Mom which dress suits me better for visa interview??

Mom: *thinking*

Me:Shell I try that Masakhali dress??

Mom:Try to look decent & don't you know the cotton dresses looks formal??

Me: Okay,i will stick to it

------------After one day---------------------

Mom:By the way which dress did R prefer??

Me:Masakhali

Mom:Okay,then why don't you prefer that??Look at her,who told her...and you...and blah blah..

Me:*awestruck*  Mom it's you who told me to pick-up the cotton one.

Mom:How come I know about your dressing style??

Me:*Shut my mouth,coz even I prefer the Masakali*

Mom:Which color is her dress??

Me:Green

Mom:Okay then choose a green dress.

Me:I don't have a green Masakhali dress momm

Mom:You inform me everything in the last movement,now in 30min we have to catch a bus & leave the station.If you have told me yesterday,we would have done the shopping,even you would be the same green Masakhali dress,so you too might get the visa easily.

Me:*Rolling my eyes*

Cousin:*ROFL* This is too much.

......Mamaa,copy karne ke liye bhi ek hadh hai...

Guess this my last post this year..Goodbye 2010..You have given me a sack of memories,never mind whether they are good or bad,I treasure them in the bottom of my heart.Today I feel like I have grown-up capable of facing everything & sturdy,I have seen life from different dimensions from the past few months.Okay,I stop.

Advanced Christmas & New Year Wishes!!!!!!Rock On!!!!!

I raise a toast to good times & welcome year 2011.Wishing you eternal bliss and hope new year brings you a fresh start with a superb time ahead.

Frenzy Friday..

Usually I love friday's,waiting for weekend.But today I am feeling agonized.Last two weeks have been so perfect,I received admit mail from every college I applied to.

*Did I mention I am planning to do MS??*

The reporting date is exactly one month away.I didn't receive the letters from the college I chose to go & the work is being piled up.I don't know how to stay calm.Even in my dreams I am ending up with these paper-work.So I woke up early morning,not understanding what to do or at least how to fall asleep.The empty chocolate case played it's role in making my mood much worst.There are innumerable juggling thoughts surrounding me & so many 'what if's' embracing me.

What if I don't receive my I20 in time??
What if the required visa dates ain't available??
What if the processing of documents aren't completed??
What if the college doesn't provide the late-approval letter??
What if the visa is rejected??
What if I don't have time to reapply the visa??

I have read some where that the most dangerous/sucking/irritating/annoying word in English is 'W',coz all the worries start with it.
Who?
Why?
What?
When?
Whom?
Which?
Where?
What if?
War!
Wine! 
*Guys stop searching for 'Women' or 'Wife'*
Its so true...Now,my story has become a sobbing story.Hope everything sets fine.Till then, me signing-off.
I need your wishes & blessing.So wish me 'All the best' buddies.
Ciao

Attended a bride viewing..

Presently I am in Hyderabad for my cousin's bride-viewing.Let me tell you the count.From our girls side we are 14,from the other side they are 7.So don't you think that it would be better if we call this as groom-viewing??Ok,leave it aside.I have much more things to tell you.
As usual the starting phase is introduction.Next three batches were formed.One consisting of all gents,other ladies and last ours(Me,sister,cousin,he).
*Point to be noted,this viewing,questioning is a formality.Everyone knows this is gonna hit.Thanks to communication technology these days*
He:Hii
Me:Hii
He:So now its your turn to rag me,you are not going to attend our marriage,right??
Me:Yes.But don't worry my sister will take care of that.
He:So which coll are you planning to go??
Me:*gave the reply*
He:Tell me about your cousin??
Sis:Calm,soft-natured
He:No I don't agree
Csn:Hello,you need to agree.
Me: *smiling*

----After 5min's-------

He:I expected you will ask some questions
Csn:Did you forget??You told me that you will ask the questions.
He:I will ask you when we are alone.
*What does dat mean??Asking us to leave??Don't forget I served you some snacks*
Csn: *giggling*

-----After ten minutes-------

He:Any of you ask me some questions?
Me:Do you read novels?
He:Not that interested.
Me:Do  you watch pic's?
He:Not frequently
Me:OK
He:Thinking that your sis and I are perfect?
Not exactly.I will never come to your house in the weekends.I will die to boredom.
Do you watch serials??Are you bala-krishna's fan?Do you have caste feeling??Do you have a face-buk and twitter account(Wanted to know whether he is technologically updated or not)?Do you have the habit of blogging??..........Shut-up Neeha.Don't irritate him.

--------After 15min's---------
(Is it sounding like Ekta's leap?)

Csn: Ask me something?
He:I will ask you when you are alone.
(This is the Second time)
Csn:Tell me some thing
Why on earth am I here???God have mercy on mee,plz
He:Silpa(sis) is feeling bored & neeha is sleeping one-side
Sitting in between these two is like my wildest nightmare come true,and he is telling I am sleeping.Lolll


---------After 10min's-----

Csn:You planned to ask something na??
He:I can't ask you in front of others.Need some space.
OMG!!This is the ultimate insult.Can't my cousin shut her mouth for sometime.I am blocked,so unable to move....ammee....Somehow bells rang in my sister's brain.She left the room and I simply followed her path.....yoyoo..

This is the conversation we had for nearly an hour.Oh my god!!!!!!
I decided never to enter in-between a pair.Why on earth did my dumb sister call us??
Sometimes I wonder what do they speak till late nights??When they don't speak anything other than this boring conversation.I bet my life I would have spoken much better to any unknown stranger.
*I remember what my bro-in-law frequently says,need privacy, right??Okay*
Need to agree love marriages are in some cases better than arranged.And I am sure this is one of the reasons,Need not waste your precious by simply staring & smiling at each other(without any reason).The worst thing is even I sat there smiling without understanding why they are giggling.

*This part is updated after referring to my friend's comments*
Finally they are gonna tie the knot on March 17th.And let me tell you guys,whenever my mom & aunt finds free time they start adoring him.
It takes hours to recall when my mom last praised me.Poor mom,when does she realize the glittering gem she has isn't a rhinestone but a diamond??But seriously my mom finds something postive in everyone,excluding myself..

Diwali's Special

The city is still illuminating.
Hope all of you enjoyed Diwali..
By the way the credit of these pics solely goes to my aunt.
I neither have the creativity nor the energy:)
Adios for now..

Secrets..

I remember very well once my friend told me 'Secrets will be as secrets only if one person knows it,if others have the slightest clue..it will never be a secret'.I never understood the significance of that,but with some experiences I think I need to agree with her completely.
Its sooo true!!
Let me tell you what hurts the most is not that the secret is revealed,but to face the fact that the person you trusted a lot let you down. Some even don't apologize.Shittt!! I hate such creatures.

I know all these gossips,rumors & secrets looks more spicy than Page3 reviews,but still how can one do that??When one tells you something and gives the label 'TOP SECRET',then just shut your mouth.Okay?
Guys!!Let me tell you something, never let any person loose thrust in you.Life's too short and too complicated.Only few people enter into our lives,with true intentions so never ever loose them in your life.

P.S:I had a function in my house enjoyed a lot and still enjoying....You too have a great weekend buddies!!

INAUGURATION FUNCTION

Finally the day is going to arrive when we are loosing our freedom.
Our first-year students are coming to college.
*Since I don't deal any first year subjects.I have my freedom.Thank God!!*

Before the Big Day....
.........Someone came and informed me that we have a dress code.All the Gents faculty have to be in suits and ties,the girls ladies faculty have to be in sarees by 8AM.To confirm the news,I went to meet Miss.V,here's our converstation.
Me:Hey is it true about that dress code?
V:  Yep,I need to come at 7:45.
Me:For what??I will not come.
V:  I have to come and wait near the Gate?
Me:What??Why???/
V:  I have to welcome parents & students.
Me:Are you kidding??
V  :Doesn't matter if you believe or not,but its true.
Me:Hey we are faculty..How could they ask us to do such things....But why you??
V  :They told that I always have a smile on my face.
     *LOL*
It made to remember the words our HOD used to say 'Don't compare our college with others'
Yep,Ours is unique.No other college will dare to imitate.

ON THE DAY
As usual I am late for college,I am in college at 9AM,without dresscode.*I love breaking the rules*.The inauguration function started.Our Principal and Academic Planning Director of our college would surely compete for the 'Worst English Ever spoke' award,if it exists.If I am the judge I would surely be in dilemma.
Here are some of the sentences that caught my attention...

Mr.Principal: Damage the computers,no problem.But learn something,that's important.
 *Mr.P,Do we have any systems in our college that are'nt damaged*
Call me daily and ask your child's feedback.I only will reply to your calls.Plzz Don't neglect your child's career.
*Mr.P we know that you don't have any work except screaming.Why do you want to prove it to outsiders too?*
....Need not worry.....You have abundant books in your library....
*Do you know the meaning of abundant??????Last week I asked for READERS DIGEST..I am given 'DYNAMIC MEMORY SUCCESS IN EXAMS WITH BETTER MARKS-be a perfect student'.In addition to this our dumb librarian says 'Mam,both are English books only.So try this'.I felt like hitting on the head,for not providing the head.All the books in the library are in English only Idiot!!!*

Mr.Director: As  a matter of fact I didnt understand a bit what he spoke,even I am hooked to each and every word he spoke.But he used the following words.......son.....new......old......son-in-law.....brother-in-law....
After discussing it with my staff,we some how interpreted in the following way:
Even though this is new college,we give importance to it a lot....The same way we give to our old other colleges...Its equal to our son.
We left the in-laws in air..

Mr.Vice-pricipal: I am proud to say that Aeronautical Engineering(Did I mention that he is AE HOD as well as VP?) is gaining the significance day-by-day.And I believe all our students become great leaders and scientist like A.P.J.Abdul Kalam.
*I don't its a burning shame to Kalam.If he had heard the speach,he would have surely regretted for choosing Aeronautical Engineering.*

And later our S&H HOD came to introduce herself.She read some one and a half pages including number of workshops and presentations.*I don't know I have included those many details in my resume or not.*
I thought that if I stay in that hall for one more second,I may freak out.So left the room.

P.S:I pity the pathetic students,who helplessly listened to their false promises.May god bless them.

Morning Moods..

Ok,I am not a complainer, at least by nature. But I have to confess the fact that, now-a-days I have only a million thoughts in my mind and zillion problems surrounding me.So unable to sleep the last two nights.
*Don't look like that.*
Don't you believe its true??Here's the proof.Its 6AM and I am glued to my system,checking blogs and freaking out in between.
So for a break I tried Dairy Milk Silk,don't neglect the fact that I still didn't brush my teeth and as usual its Yum-Yum....Yummyyyyy......Yummylicious...
This is the first time I tried this without brushing,after all it's not a bad idea.You too can try it.I assure you, you will enjoyyyy.

Now I am thinking about the dairy milk ad. Shubh Aarambh in my mind.
Hope everything goes fine today and for the rest of the 30-working days(Do I need to scream I am gonna resign my job in nxt 30-working days??????Yes,It deserves it..),coz I guess I have given a Shubh Aarambh(But for what??Hmmm......I guess for every upcoming event).


P.S:Wish me I have to do the same in my college today...

Hope all of you have a great day!!!!!